a Journey

It's been such a tiring period. I'm so drained, so tired. I hate the way this tiredness is eclipising everything in my life. My relationship with Lama is so strained simply because I'm too tired to even care about him, or anything sometimes. All I want to do is sleep. Even then, sleep is disturbed and fragmented because I feel that I should be doing something else more productive. I so wish I could turn back the hands of time and undo all the hurt I've caused Lama. 'BraT' is a good word to describe me these past few weeks. I have no idea how Lama puts up with me. He says it's alright because he loves me; then I say my baby must really love me a helluva lot for all that I've put him thru. Naidu said that at the rate I'm going, I sound like I'm going to go off my rockers soon. Maybe. Unless I start pulling the safety stops I'm so going to go over the edge. I'm stressed out. Overwhelmed by what looms in the distance and yet frustrated that I'm not being productive at all! I mean, Nuurul, Shal & Nawwar are gonna start their muggin' tis weekend! I mean, the mad crazy project period has jst ended and I'd so love a breather. But I guess I must keep up with the rest! I'm such a complete nerd now... what happened to the carefree me who could live life?! I miss that ol' me. Now, I'm jst oLd. Y'knw, if it wasn't for a good ol' dose of gurl power today I'd have jst collapsed. Jo, is E SweeTesT babY gurL around and I'm so gonna castrate e guy that treats her like dirt. Anyway, I finally got around to going to the gym! Had a very blonde gym session and am now nursing a water boil on me lil' toe the size of a peanut! *bleaugh* Luckily it's the weekend and Lama's here to TLC! *grins* Right darlin'? *mwaH* Princesse Suckerphish over and out!