a Journey

I wonder how valid a presentation grade is, if the prof. does the following:

1. Gives the presenting group 20 minutes to set up AND present whilst the allowed time per group was actually 30 minutes.

2. The 2 previous groups had 30 minutes or more each.

3. She cuts you first presenter short because she is bored *keeps yawning and looking at her watch* and does not want her to interact with the students. "No questions. Just do your presention."

4. She cuts your last presenter halfway thru' because she's not interested and says, "All I want to know is this marriage cermony that you talk about, is it still in practise today?" I'm not sure why she was specifically interested in this part... maybe it's to do with the fact that she likes the idea of being able to get married (finally?) one day. In the distant future.

Really, I wonder. Since this was supposed to be an inter-cultural lecture presentation. And she's supposed to be an inter-personal expert (her research expertise).

*hmm*

i like staying in e comforts of home.

i like being pampered and pandered to by my family.

Yaya as usual is leading the pack,

cooking all my favourite dishes *rubs tummy*

on e way home, talking with friends remind me

of how fortunate i am.

at the end of e day, i return to people,

not an empty house of walls.

desolated and cold.

i have warmth and love.

for that i shall be grateful

and continue to count and give thanks for

my blessings.

How tired can one person be?

I'm not sure.

Maybe it's e way I'm feeling now.

I'm so physically tired,

Nothing else seems to function.

Phiysically, I've shut down.

Mentally, I'm being dragged down toO.

Emotionally, I think I've just completely stoned.

Gracia to Me: We need to check the camera.

Gracia staring at me for the next 5 minutes...

Me: Oh, we need to check the camera!

I need a rest.

More specifically I need sleep.

Chang to Me: Phie, if we squeezed both our eye bags, we could water the entire Sahara Desert.

I need help!

"Why am I so tired?"

p.s. for all those poor MRT commuters I traumatised today; falling asleep on your shouder... and all other unglam poses. *blushes and pats your clothes into place*

I'm sorrY!

This weekend:

+I laughed. really hard in a long time.. ...

Just before Zouk, we decided to get our late dinner at the hawker centre, with the 'famous' carrot cake. (a/c to Nick)

Nick (to John): You know, just now I thought this carrot cake uncle was damn power.

John: Why?

Nick: Yah, I thought he's damn cool, 'cos he's blind and yet he can still fry the carrot cake till damn seh.

Charles (who was happily munching and chomping away on the carrot cake in question): Hmmm, yeah. I thought so too.

Nick: Then, I thought he was even more power when I gave him $5 and he could give me back $2 change too!

Charles: (mouth still full from the carrot cake): Umm, ywah.

Nick: Then I remembered, the uncle is deaf, not blind!

+Shal's gossip made me happy for her *grins*

Now I want to have weekly dinners with her

So i can have weekly juicy updates! *i like*

+I tried to study with Jo

But the only thing that I really learned about,

was this new place called 'Waffletown'

Located in Simei's Eastpoint,

that seems to sell nothing but fried foods.

+I missed my Darling lots when I went out with the guys

-clouds-

But I saw the silver lining of the night:

they're my friends as much as they are his! *blissful smile*

+ I am LoVeD!

Independent as I may be,

I like to pampered

I like to be protected

*dreamy smile*

*yawns*stretches*

It feels really good to be sick...

Cos it seems to be the only way I can get the rest I need!

Yes, I have a sleep debt so HUMoNGoUS,

It's weighing my face down by way of my eye bags.

*BAH*

Met up with sweet ol' Ern yesterday for the doc's prescription:

Rest, rest and more rest.

Caffeine can only do so much for you

After which everything just goes downhill.

Or rather, stops functioning TOTALLY

I'm happy with my day of rest

Although my mind's still weighed down with the projects at hand.

My mantra?

Hush my over-active, workaholic brain. *Shuddup*

I will do my work, when I'm done with my chillin'.

Elaine and Wanting are holed up in the editing lab today.

I feel really really awful!

But I know that if I don't take my break today,

I won't be functioning at all for the next few days.

Today is the day I put into practise my ability to say 'No'.

Although I do feel this naggy feeling telling me that I should be at skool with them.

I know that I should just ignore that irritating lil' voice and learn to cut back.

Learn to chill.

*sigh* when did I get to be this way? I don't know.

I never had a problem prioritising (did I spell it right? *oops*).

Yet ever since I entered uni,

My time management has just gone down the whooshy drain.

I need more 'me' time.

I want to be able to talk at more earthly hours with my Dear.

My gurls need to see more of me.

My family needs to see a nicer me

Instead of the grouch that returns home exhausted

Drained from the day's happenings.

Fay-gurl

You, make me see the glitter and colour in the grey around me.

Lama

 You, give me the strength to press on till the end of the day.

Life here ain't the same without your smiles.

I miss the laughter and sunshine.

It's all about how you touch my life in a way no one else can.

it's a cloudy Tuesday morning... so I knw it isn't e Monday blues. or is it jst a delayed reaction, as usual? *sigh* i was readin Life! a few days back and found out tt pple who feel tired, or in my case fatigued, in e day cld be showing symptoms of depression or diabetes. I'd like to think mine is due to me trying to cut back on caffeine. then agn, i had a large Starbuck's capp yest afternn. oh wells. i think it's jst skool which is overwhelming me. it's almost as if all i'm living for is e next assignment deadline, filming project, essay report... whatever. i feel so drained by skool n i'm only halfway thru' it. *bah* i really wish tt everyone was here with me, instead of scattered across e globe. yeah, e global village, true as it may be, does not really work well with poor uni students with limited finances. jst thinking abt it, i think i'd need to survey half of tis island before i can earn enuf for a trip to see Aussie. and i'd probabaly huf to survey e whole island to go to San Francisco. thinking abt it jst makes me want to cry, e way I almost did at bedok mrt stn at 7a.m. on a very recent Monday morning. it's not tt i'm not happy here. it's jst tt i wish i wasn't missing pple so much, so often. i haven't seen some of them in years. it's so not funny. and Fir's leaving early nxt year for Boston. it's crazy. when i'm in Melbourne, i miss those back here. when i'm here, skool jst makes it even more miseable. don't get me wrong, e ppl here r amazing darlings whom i love to bits. but sometimes, i jst feel so incomplete.

p.s. the names were arranged in alphabetical order and is not representative of my affection for either party.

to all who perished in Hurricane Katrina because of the apathy of those who knew but thot they cld not make a difference, cld not help:

i don't knw what to say, but, sorry. is sorry ever going to be enuf for e anguish? i don knw. will we ever understand e full frustration n wrenching pain of their circumstances? i don think so, n honestly, i hope none of us will ever have to. but tt is absolutle idealism n wishful thinking which has no place in reality. instead, i pray tt e human spirit will be more sensitized to e plights surrounding us. i knw tt we shld nt have had to wait for New Orleans' Mayor Ray Nagin to go on CNN before e extent of devastation hit home. how jaded has our conscience become?

We Believe - Good Charlotte
There’s a woman crying out tonight
Her world has changed
She asks God why
Her only son has died
And now her daughter cries
She can’t sleep at night

Downtown another day for all the suits and ties
Another war to fight
There’s no regard for life
How do they sleep at night
How can we make things right
Just wanna make this right

We believe
In this love

We are all the same
Human in all our ways and all our pain
(So let it be)
There’s a love that could fall down like rain
(Let us see)
Let forgiveness wash away the pain
(What we need)
And no one really knows what they are searching for
(We believe)
This world is crying for so much more

We believe
In this love

We believe
In this love

So this world is too much for you to take
Just let him down and follow me
I’ll be everything you need
In every way

We believe
In this love

In this love
We believe
In this love
We believe
In this love
We believe
In this love