a Journey

Exams will start this Wedesday (3/11). *sigh*

1st up: Visual Comm.

I'm terrified of tis paper...

and being the nenek that I am,

this means that I'm spending precious time blogging

instead of trying to study the visual theories

about how images affect us,

based on the ideologies we've been brainwashed into.

or so Mister Sturken says.

I haven't read Mister Lester yet.

*swoons jst taking a glimpse at that book*

Orientalism is good.

cos it reminds me of Aladdin,

and all my wonderful Disney escapades.

but Orientalism has tainted Disney for me.

F.Y.I

Aladdin by Disney is a product of Orientalism.

a form of stereotyping of the Western world,

on the middle-eastern world.

my knowledge of CS 202,

is limited to this.

*help*

thankfully, I've a new caffeinne addict in my midst.

sHhHaL-wOw-aAh

*grins*

tonight, we'll be pulling major study duties at terminal 2.

any kopi place is fine by me.

as long as the caffeine keeps coming.

well, it's cheaper than retail therapY!

which is what I did yesterday with lovely cuzs

Sher & Dan (pTe LtD)

A best friend combo.

*hyuk hyuk*

Zara is a godsend

and a money hole.

::Brown cardi-sweater::

:: Interesting dark turquoise boatneck::

I want MORE.

thankfully, buying DH's pressie will help

in aiding my retail withdrawal symptoms.

*hopeful*

-milk n rice krispies- teh ping-

lovely, yummy delicious food.

or so I thought, till I realised...

my lactose-intolerance has returned,

with a huge mama vengeance.

So my tummy is now hard.

so hard, it's almost as if

I've been doing sit-ups for a week. *ouch*

in addition to that,

I realised that I'm not that near my hostel canteen

And that cereals, biscuits n chocs

can only take me this far.

I'm in need of real food -sans milk-

I'm in need of caffeine frm e good ol' uncle at Can 3.

such amazing teh ping!

::creamy, sweet, strong::

which I think I'm addicted to.

totally craving for that caffeine fix now.

With stress and nenek mood swings come the food cravings:

choc waffles

beef rendang

sambal kangkong

coco krunch

steaming white rice

breadtalk, four leaves...

kinder bueno

Perugia chocs

AGF's hot choc!

well, nuff' said. I realise that looks like a menu.

*bah*

I am wonky everywhere.

my books are terrorizing me.

*smacks forehead & faints onto bed*

sleep is good.

Kenny CATI lab rescuer is fixing the oft-jammed printer.

Just gave my Ferrero Rochers

to those who need them more than me.

i.e. e 227 & 229 babes.

Life is still krazy but at least,

we're given a chance to breathe.

yet, being able to breathe means

the tiredness of the past weeks

can suddenly swamp you.

=envelope & overwhelm=

that's how I feel now. *gulps*

tis is NOT e time to get tired

I still need to press on.

somehow, caffeinne doesn't seem to work as well anymore. *guLps*

maybe suga might. *fingers crossed*

Had 3 containers of desserts donated to me yest nite,

courtesy of the Can A uncle.

so sweeT AND stuFFed! *greedy smile*

this seems to be the week when everything

just seems to come in waves.

the great, the sad, the ugle, the pain...

it's literally a JUMBLE.

-tired-

today was our 1st gurls' nite out to Prego's to celebrate Darling Sweetie Jo's birthday *whee*

dessert as usual was fantastic

:: tiramisu :: 

:: thick coffee powder on the top in oh so cream-rich sponge cake & liquor ::

:: creme brulee with raspberry ice cream ::

:: custard smooth cream with lovely caramelised wafers ::

I realised, that as a gurl, desserts never fail to perk one up.

but what's even better than desserts?

my gurLs.

-Jo-Naidu-Nisha-Jac

it's been too long since we met up. way toO long.

a06 was a fantastic class,

let's not lose that babes

cos some things are just toO precious & dear.

my next weekend back in e east, we'll go for Delifrance breakfast buffet.

no one is allowed to da*n diet when they're eating with me--> carbs are NOT evil.

and

Jo dear, you're an amazing gurL.

dreams take time (anything worthwhile takes time)

it's only a matter of being patient. *smiles*

thought of the day:

from Anna, an exchange student from Sweden:

Why do Singaporeans complain about bad taxi service

in the national newspaper

when the 'white elephant' issue is happening right now?

Quote of tonight:

"That's true, I'm always happiest when I'm 2-timing."

in the context of how having a support network

just makes one glow with warmth.

*woOokay*haha*

*yawns* the beer has worked its effect out.

Art exhibition at Justin's mum's place tmr,

followed by choc buffet with Fir! *yippee*

(feeling so guilty about not studying whilst staying up)

for those who're interested:

 Maiden Inspirations opens tmr

#03-01 Stamford House

4p.m - 6p.m

Jumble sale at Jo's on Sunday.

*who wants to buy my pretty tops?*

y'know how it never rains but it pours?

well, yesterday i had plenty of

Pampering, Care & Love

all pouring down on me! *blissful smile*

first there was Fir, then my dad, Yaya & Antony.

maybe it's cos i was moving into hostel that's why...

my dad is especially protective of me,

whenever i leave his side

and Yaya jst goes berserk,

thinking i'll fall prey to negligence

of my own doing -of cos-

so i was piled high with food, chocs, coffee, cereal...

dad actually drove to toa payoh

*touched*

cos he heard tt e NTUC there,

Had more innovative snacks stuff

or sth along those lines. *hmm*

basically, i've e works sitting in my dorm pantry.

i've got Post Blueberry cereal, Kellogs cereal...

Nescafe gold in cute itsy bitsy packet forms

a whole box of Ferrero Rocher...

to say e least.

i am blessed.

and i am thankful.

i like having brekkie with Fir,

or meeting up with him for tt matter

cos everytime i do, i gain insight into matters close to my heart.

like family... my parents, especially my parents.

it's amazing how many issues i seem to have with them

i wonder if tt's normal even.

but talking to Fir, i realise this fact:

come what may, they love me

maybe a way bit too much,

or to put it better

not e way i want to be loved.

i feel suffocated at times, till today

frustrated yes. often.

and loved, pampered too.

i guess i don't realise how good i've got it

till i start looking around me with my eyes wide open

then i see, i've been blessed.

just cos they don't love me e way i want them to,

i knw they're still loving me with all tt they can offer.

it doesn't solve or ease e scars frm e numerous fights i've had with them

e screaming, e cursing, e hating, e tears.

i still need time to get over it.

but Fir, looking at e way u are now with ur dad...

it gives me so much hope.

i'm so happy things worked out for ur parents n u! *really truly*

Pampered Princess who's appreciating all tt she's got,

Sophie

Today is the day my crazy 4 hour nights have caught up

How gone am I?

Hmm, if you peek into my brain, this is what you'll hear/see:

I want foot reflexology!

Kay Chin's ga4: it's hounding me even in my dreams! *booze treat*

When will I get to go to Charlie's corner for the fish n' chips?

When will I see YOU again?

-Pretty cardigans with laces & pearls-

Fay, I've no more shopping kakis left!

U.R.S-- my new 'pasar malam' shoes alternative

I thought I knew Helmi & Nuurul... I thought wrong. 

Or did I? Did I?!

My new dream job: MANGO/ Joop girl with staff discount!

Wardrobe colour palette is purple, beige, black, pink & brown

*ooH*pretty yummy cakes*

We are only worth as much as the r/s we have,

Alfian Sa'at "Corridors" made me realise this

a really amazing short story: magnificent!

::caffeine:: 2 times or more a day

i am tired.

physically, mentally... spiritually?

i don't knw anymore.

jst so tired i feel like sleeping tis whole week away.

but i knw it's impossible to rest now.

e end is near.

all i need to do is hang on in there for a few more days.

or week.

so help me God.

p.s. Fay-gurl, wish you were here so we cld study and huf retail therapy together!

i am so irritable nowadays, 

i think pple shld approach me with a 10-foot long stick

*prode and poke* see if i bite,

then come closer.

why you may ask?

hmm... ...

maybe it's e endless hours of filming

required for a single project

and e fact tt i have 2 projects running concurrently

for filming alone

on top of tt, i have InDesign

12 lovely pages of newspaper

waiting for me to unleash my creativity juice upon it

e last time i checked,

my juice bar was EMPTY

*turns bottle upside down*

nothing.

BUT

i shall be thankful for:

Fay, my psychic sister

n how she's been having 'Sophie' moments

jst so she can still huf a bit of me in her life

despite e fact we're 8hrs away by plane

You, my ever patient dear

for understanding me

thru e snarls n claws *meyow*

for helping me realize tt thre's a bigger picture out thre

although rite now,

i'm so mired in e mud i can barely see anything

but BROWN.

above all for Him.

so tt i knw i'm not in tis madness we call uni life,

alone.