a Journey

Each tear, a vaccuum
that sucks me hollow.
Drained, I gasp and re-surface
emptier than before.

Why do I feel at home
when I look into your eyes?
Why do I believe that
I could understand you?
Why do I want to fight
just for one chance,
we agreed to bury?

Tonight, and no more
will I allow myself
this futility.

I will shatter the dam
So that it will never
hold the tears that flow now.

It's more than you.
It's who we were,
and what we had.

I rested in arms
that cradled and warmed me.
You saw past the defences,
and seeked me out when I hid.

I cried for the story
that the words told.
You understood why
and held me.

I learnt to paint my memories
with a brush that was borrowed.
You taught me how to live
for the here and now.

I didn't dare stay too long
because I'm afraid of you.
You made me happy,
and take my breath away, still.

I never really knew how
to appreciate my accomplishments.
You taught me to hold my head high
when you celebrated the
sweat and sacrifice behind them.

Thank you for sharing
a moment in time.
For the truths and dreams
that the night coaxed
from our inner closets.

Perhaps, the hope
will remain steadfast.
I pray you'll see the rainbows
as you journey towards your goal.

But the morning's a new day,
without you or us.
Just me,
and a new sunrise.