a Journey

As I look towards the day I'll officially become an adult, I realise how blessed I've been to have had all the wonderful experiences and crazy fun using the excuse of being young and stupid. It wasn't an amulet against hurt and pain, but it was a bonus, a trump card that allowed me the best memories and experiences I know I've been so fortunate to enjoy. Tears and all.:)

And now, as I look back to all those times, I find myself missing SPACE. Maybe my pigsty of my room is getting to me. But seriously, I miss the sea, the sky, the trees... the stars so, so much. This is a city-state and the city-ness of it all is lovely but grating after awhile. I want my blanket of stars. Oh SO bad. I want to drive along the costal roads with the sea and forest on either side of me and the air so fresh and crisp. Somehow, whilst I can understand the rustic charm of the local beach, sometimes, it's just too small a space for too many a Singaporean.

Yaya keeps bugging me to sleep: "Why don't you sleep? Go have a nice rest in the boys' room." (p.s. she's refering to my brothers' room cos I seem to like their bed more than mine. Maybe it's cos I keep rolling off my bed?!) I wish I could. But I think my body temperature performs optimally at 12 degrees. I don't know. I can't seem to sleep here as I do in winter.

Winter. I want my white Christmas. Well, even fake snow would make me happy now! ;) It's SPACE I miss so much.

Excerpts of SPACE from my roadtrips. I need to find myself a kampung soon if I don't get over this craving soon. People crave chocolates. I crave space. (why?!)

Childhood gave me the freedom of space, I wonder what the next phase will bring. I really wonder. With all child-like curiosity.