a Journey

i wonder. sometimes, i hate the fact that everything we talked about seems to be more of a facade than ever before. yet. when i think about it rationally, it makes sense why you and i can't be there at the same time. the secret's so dark. it might not be able to be camouflaged properly. but. it is not right. grey as feelings may be. there are somethings in life which are black and white. i don't know. thankfully, you'll never read this. cos 2 confused people are no help. and if i knew what i should do. i would. bad judgement on my part. bad character on yours. or is it? damnit. i wish i knew. when i saw the look on his face (fcuk someone actually took a photo of it when he was on the mobile with you.) i wish. i wish i knew how to make things better then. it's not right. i wonder what will make things right again.