a Journey

The Lunar New Year has brought with it this impetus for change. Not because of anyone... just this desire to take the initiative and change the way things are and have been in my Life.
For starters, I think this blog is going to be less about me: I don't want to lay myself so bare to a computer. I think it's time I start learning to open up to those around me. It's not going to be easy... but it's time I tried. It's draining trying to bring my thoughts and emotions across... but I think I could get used to opening up. I want to. I think I've to grow up and stop expecting people to guess my moods. But it's still very heart-warming when some manage to understand me without me saying anything. I don't want to be mollycoddled any longer. It's nice to be so loved. But after Shanghai, I realise I cannot go back to being Princess Fie. I am so much more appreciative of the chauffering I get; but I rely a lot more on the MRT and buses nowadays. :)
It's awkward learning to say 'No' to so much goodwill... but it really feels good moving around on my own. It's so much more than the transport situation... it's just that the transport is symbolic of a lot of the people and situations in my Life that moving away from the steady source of readily available transport says a lot about the relationships and Me. In general.
It's still a long long way to go. But dearies, I know you'll ride with me. ;)
Thanks y'all for the Love.